It has been more than a year since I wrote in this, and let me tell you...
Things change, feelings are rearranged, and love is different. It's so different. Relationships die, or grow... And life... It's so different too...,
Living where I live now has changed my life completely... And.. I don't know whether I like it or not.
So many things have changed concerning my emotions and just life!
Everything is different...
I have made friends here, friends that I love and will never forget!
But I always have the special place in my heart for the ones I left behind.
Things get better, but it's a weird better, it's nothing like you would ever expect...
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Depression
It has been a LONG while since i have written about moving on.... see, the fact of the matter is..... Its HARD too. Its been about 4 months since I've been at my last school and its been, difficult. But the thing is not to keep reminding yourself on the good times of the past- every once in a while- sure- go have a ball, but not every second of every day, then you'll sink- down, and down... untill you cant see the light anymore. That's when depression sets in, it can come as a tsunami, or a small wave, on the shore- crashing over, and over again. Depression is tough....... but you can always look on the bright side- but it may be very hard.
Life doesn't give you an easy life to make it easy, it gives you challenges so you can strive.
And depression is only our minds creating images, and times where you were happy, and it twists it saying "You arent as happy as this time" and then you get sad. Too sad, you dont even know what to do with yourself. You dont know whether to do something crazy- or something.... deadly..... Whatever the case may be, dont do it. It wont help. I swear.
To think about it, everything to say here in this blog... is serious. Depression is serious. And needs to be dealt with it right away. (Sorry for the Docter stuff... I'm not a Docter.... I just dont want anyone getting hurt.)
Just remember to look into the future and remember never to give up. Life will get better.. I promise
Stay Strong <3
Life doesn't give you an easy life to make it easy, it gives you challenges so you can strive.
And depression is only our minds creating images, and times where you were happy, and it twists it saying "You arent as happy as this time" and then you get sad. Too sad, you dont even know what to do with yourself. You dont know whether to do something crazy- or something.... deadly..... Whatever the case may be, dont do it. It wont help. I swear.
To think about it, everything to say here in this blog... is serious. Depression is serious. And needs to be dealt with it right away. (Sorry for the Docter stuff... I'm not a Docter.... I just dont want anyone getting hurt.)
Just remember to look into the future and remember never to give up. Life will get better.. I promise
Stay Strong <3
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Never Forgetting
Just this past weekend- I went to my old town. :) it was so good to see everyone that I did see. Sure, I would have liked to see EVERYONE, but that didn't happen, and for you guys that are expecting a huge reunion, dont. Because it's not like that.... At all. I'm sparing Hirt feelings and some times(depending on the person) tears. But I didn't care much, I saw my best friend, and her other friends, which are my friends too, and we hung out- and we were just us. I really didnt need to show off or impress, so I was myself. It was finally nice to just be with everyone I used to hang out with during school. Back when things were simple, and I wasn't alone watching "all night Chiller episodes"
What I'm trying to say is that Moving On, doesn't mean forgetting.... Not at all. Moving On has it's terms- and definitions. But to me Moving On, is much more than that... It's about never letting go of the good times- and never letting go of the people you love. BUT excepting that there will be changes and learning how to deal. Sure, it might take awhile... Maybe a long time. The point is to never just say "Screw It" and not connect with your old town- or whatever your moving on from, just realize you might not see them as much and plan, plan PLAN to see them when your missing your other friends.
For me, it was a month since I've been in my old town... Sure thats soon... But it's Summer and was REALLY BORED. some people I haven't even seen them since the first week of June! Just remember to Never Forget. :)
What I'm trying to say is that Moving On, doesn't mean forgetting.... Not at all. Moving On has it's terms- and definitions. But to me Moving On, is much more than that... It's about never letting go of the good times- and never letting go of the people you love. BUT excepting that there will be changes and learning how to deal. Sure, it might take awhile... Maybe a long time. The point is to never just say "Screw It" and not connect with your old town- or whatever your moving on from, just realize you might not see them as much and plan, plan PLAN to see them when your missing your other friends.
For me, it was a month since I've been in my old town... Sure thats soon... But it's Summer and was REALLY BORED. some people I haven't even seen them since the first week of June! Just remember to Never Forget. :)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Taking a Breathe of Fresh Air
Sorry I've been away for a couple days-my few readers... I was out with my family doing summery things.
This past few days I realized how precious friendship is, how easily you can loose it, or how quickly it can make you feel loved.
I am not the best at socializing, making new friends.. yada yada, but the ones I have made, are the best people in the world. They actually protect me from making bsd decisions and help me through the ones ive already made.
Friends are those people you can always count on to have your backs, even if they arent physically there. They will always tell you right from wrong- like your friend is the angel, and your self-conscience is the devil, sitting on your shoulders. Its amazing how one minute, you feel like you could almost die, and a few seconds later after talking with your friend, you feel like your not the only one, and it makes you feel warm inside. Like my favorite quote from Maya Angelou says:
So love everything that makes your heart skip a beat, laugh at anything that makes you smile, and enjoy life because it’s what we are here to do, enjoy it till the last second.
Life doesnt wait for you to find yourself, you have to live to figure it out.
Live On, Love Always, and Be Free
This past few days I realized how precious friendship is, how easily you can loose it, or how quickly it can make you feel loved.
I am not the best at socializing, making new friends.. yada yada, but the ones I have made, are the best people in the world. They actually protect me from making bsd decisions and help me through the ones ive already made.
Friends are those people you can always count on to have your backs, even if they arent physically there. They will always tell you right from wrong- like your friend is the angel, and your self-conscience is the devil, sitting on your shoulders. Its amazing how one minute, you feel like you could almost die, and a few seconds later after talking with your friend, you feel like your not the only one, and it makes you feel warm inside. Like my favorite quote from Maya Angelou says:
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."To me, this quote means don't spend your days wishing, and waiting, hughing and exhaling for something to come along and magically save you from yourself. It means to go out there, share your experiences with the world, live life, breath in, and make your magical moments.
So love everything that makes your heart skip a beat, laugh at anything that makes you smile, and enjoy life because it’s what we are here to do, enjoy it till the last second.
Life doesnt wait for you to find yourself, you have to live to figure it out.
Live On, Love Always, and Be Free
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Part One-Coping
The first part in "Moving On" is well, coping. People cope differently, and for me, I didnt really use the best coping technique, and im still on part one, so trust me... im going through it too. Coping is difficult, finding ways to keep yourself busy, paint-doodle, do something you love, because if you just sit and mope around all day, those feelings of regret and sadness build up inside. And believe me, its not fun walking around like a zombie.
Life is about exploring new things and meeting new people, yes i know- "you dont wanna meet new people, you want to be with the ones you love" Yes, i got that pegged, but the thing is to not care, and do it anyway. Life is not about thinking about the consequences, that you can do after your dead. Life is about ambition, objectives- and just doing it. (sorry, didnt mean to make it a Nike commercial)
I believe you are only as strong as your heart intends, and if your hearts not into anything new- well, you need to work on it. :) Life is about not knowing whats happening next, and going wherever the wind takes you. And for that, I thank it, because if I had not moved from my previous previous home, i would have never had the chance on meeting all of my closest friends.
Life is about taking risks..... and not regret.
Stay Stong <3
Life is about exploring new things and meeting new people, yes i know- "you dont wanna meet new people, you want to be with the ones you love" Yes, i got that pegged, but the thing is to not care, and do it anyway. Life is not about thinking about the consequences, that you can do after your dead. Life is about ambition, objectives- and just doing it. (sorry, didnt mean to make it a Nike commercial)
I believe you are only as strong as your heart intends, and if your hearts not into anything new- well, you need to work on it. :) Life is about not knowing whats happening next, and going wherever the wind takes you. And for that, I thank it, because if I had not moved from my previous previous home, i would have never had the chance on meeting all of my closest friends.
Life is about taking risks..... and not regret.
Stay Stong <3
Introduction
Have you ever thought you could never get over those rough, so heartbreaking-knee shaking, goodbyes? Needless to say, everyone goes through them once in their life.... and for people who dont? Well, let me just say your lying to yourself.
Anyway, let me tell you, its not easy, the rode down that "goodbye path" is not easy to walk, but to look on the bright side... (if there is one) there has to be one person, that is going-or went through the same thing. So, really, if you think about it.. its not really a "bright side" to it all, because the pain you may be feeling, is happening to someone else, but your not alone. Kay, so yeah, that first part was cheesy, and YES it will be all of the cheesy parts that I know of, but this is my blog about how it is to move on, to let go, and to never forget.
Lesson to be learned, here whether its a break-up, moving different locations- or someone passing away, there are ways to get over it, but never forget the fun, happy, moments that you once shared and cherrish them, because if you throw it all away. (Which I tried to do once) but it ended up everyone was upset and that never ends well for anyone. But the fact of the matter is to let go, but to hold on to all of the good memories.
I swear to god, this will get better as the things come along. :)
Anyway, let me tell you, its not easy, the rode down that "goodbye path" is not easy to walk, but to look on the bright side... (if there is one) there has to be one person, that is going-or went through the same thing. So, really, if you think about it.. its not really a "bright side" to it all, because the pain you may be feeling, is happening to someone else, but your not alone. Kay, so yeah, that first part was cheesy, and YES it will be all of the cheesy parts that I know of, but this is my blog about how it is to move on, to let go, and to never forget.
Lesson to be learned, here whether its a break-up, moving different locations- or someone passing away, there are ways to get over it, but never forget the fun, happy, moments that you once shared and cherrish them, because if you throw it all away. (Which I tried to do once) but it ended up everyone was upset and that never ends well for anyone. But the fact of the matter is to let go, but to hold on to all of the good memories.
I swear to god, this will get better as the things come along. :)
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